665. a memory of yesteryear

I may have said sorry many times.

It may not have come off as sincere.

How many times must I apologize?

Do my words fall on deaf ears?

I have an announcement to make.

I am truly sorry.

Nothing I do can erase the hurt I caused.

Nothing.

I have become addicted to writing here as a way to dream away my pain.

Whether you forgive me or not, I will never truly know.

All I wish is for your happiness.

I imagine you are happy without me.

I have no choice but to live with this anguish and guilt.

I know life has not been good to you.

I know I was an asshole, a dickhead, insensitive, selfish, and maybe borederline crazy.

Be that as it may, I just write here in the hope that these words will reach you somehow.

I wanted us to be till death doth us part.

Unfortunately, that was not meant to be.

Goodbye sweet sad beautiful lady.

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