Post 218. Not Tormented At All

Chapter 12. The Last Lesson

Is morality still important in today's society? I see the commodification of sex. Is it a good thing for women? I can book a lot with 5 taps on my phone. I can walk to that place and nobody cares. What was once immoral, now glorified. What was once taboo has become "normalized".

Rain yesterday was like this pain that never ends. Wind that exposed the emptiness of your soul. Writing and blabbing. Scratching for meaning. I see your yearning 4 a person that cares.

She said I never loved her. She said I never cared for her. She said so many things I never imagined existed in her mind. All I did was dream. All I do is write fiction.

Why should imaginary ghosts cause so much stress? Your highness. The prince is naked with Julia. Who cares if she is a pretty woman? Who cares if she is the lowest of the low.

Verily I say, "Prostitutes are people too!" I am no defender of rape with consent. I am no delusional feminist either. I try to stay stoic but God, I can't, I can't.

I have seen too much and heard loud lust. Yes, the pussy was good. Yes. The breasts were sweet. But I did not know that behind the fake smile lies a beautiful soul without a home.

Baby. For all the pain I have caused you, I am sorry. I cannot stop writing because my mind is full of shit and love for you. I don't know why. To be honest, it doesn't make sense.

Be that as it mae, it is what it is not. I love u baby Vae. I always will.

Nazdrowie baby. Don't give up on me.

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